Looks like things are taking a turn for the worst. lol.
Results aren't looking good. Teachers telling me to buck up, well i actually am.
Just got a scolding from my mum too.
Teito plan striked off.
Lenalee plan striked off.
Hakuren plan striked off.
Hoshina Utau plan striked off.
Yay. lol.
Hey. I may not even be able to cos at all this year.
Let's see. It's so bad that my trip to KL in march and june is cancelled.
I'm depressed? Maybe. Not sure.
Over-paranoid again? Probably.
Difficulty expressing myself? Yeah. Definitely.
I can't say it. I can't do anything. Oh well. That's the way it is.
If i can't cos for events, just go there and enjoy friend's company i guess.
Even though i know i'll feel.... i'll just feel uneasy.
Ah well. Whatever. What to do? I'm stupid.
Should've worked hard from Primary 6 onwards. Should have worked harder last year.
Regretting isn't going to help anyway.
I feel like shit. So what? It'll go away soon anyway. It's natural to feel shitty sometimes.
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On a happier note. I should just start on my remaining plans now and savour the sweet taste of doing cosplay stuffs again.
4 plans left on my list. Should really start now to make them perfect.
Need to improve on my girl makeup too. I'm ugly.
And shed some weight. I'm fat.
Hahaha. Chinese New Year's around the corner.
Cosplay income, here i come. LOL. *shot*
Have i changed? I think i have.
And it's not for the better. I have a feeling it's for the worst.
Yay. Who am i, exactly.
Treasuring friends too much normally leads to pain. So maybe i shouldn't?
Haha. wtf. shoot me. aaaaaaaa. kill me. whatever.
It's probably just my insomnia and spammage of pandora hearts songs causing me to go abit nuts.
So for now,
Ja~